Second Place Winner: Sarena
Strachan
I Am A Dirty Secret.
Quiet tears and muffled sobs
Painful memories are all that's left.
Everything else from that summer in gone
Dried up, evaporated
This is all last summer is capable of giving me
now.
All it can present to me,
Long dry strings of memories
For me to tangle my fingers in and grip tightly
As you once did to my hair
Caught up in that one, sole
Moment of passion.
Fake passion, fake everything, fake you.
In one of these dry memories
I remember loving you
And with great reluctance
I admit to myself I love you still
And wonder if I could ever possibly stop loving
you.
Remember kissing in the rain? Roller Coasters?
They flew down my veins
And the screams of the hormone-charged teenagers
aboard them
Brought my limbs to life and made me long for
more.
You are gone, you are long gone, you were never
here
You were never here when I was.
Self-pity and explosive anger flood my senses
And threaten to cave my tired body in
When I come to the sombre realization
That I am still here
Here after all this time
Now the question that lingers in and out of my
mind
Suspended in mid-air, tearful,
And buried in words never said, issues unresolved,
is,
Should I stay here?
To dwell in the things you said?
"Shhhh... " you had whispered.
I had wanted to scream
Scream the song you were making my body play
But you told me to be quiet
No one should know you were ever here
Dirty bathrooms hold dirty secrets now
I should go back and lock myself inside,
It's where I belong...
Being a dirty secret.
